It felt like a needle it cut like a knife

Ripping through the fiber and the ashes of my life

So now I taste the saline and the drops of adrenaline

I guess you said forever when you should have said four months

Is this what you really wanted?



I don't want to care about you

But I'm better off dead without you

And no one knows what I don't want to say

Everything that you did was exactly what you wanted

And I'm left here where half of me remains



Now I've gotten good at having no feelings

With all of the dealings in my life

I should have know naivaty would always have its price

I built this wall around us that you blew up from inside

The mutineered captain of this shell I call my life

I just can't wrap my head around it.



I don't want to care about you

But I'm better off dead without you

I only know that I don't wanna play

Everything that you did was

Exactly what you wanted

I'm singing over your out of tune parade



You ripped my insides out and left me all exposed

So I'll sew it up and smile so no one knows

God forbid that people see 

Exactly what you've done to me or

Exactly who you are inside



I don't want to care about you

But I'm better off dead without you

She could have said

"It's only for one day"

Everything that you did was

Exactly what you wanted

I'm peeking out from behind the shades



And I hate that it's not you

But I don't give a f*ck about you

Or anything that anybody says

You've left me so haunted

Is that what you really wanted

And I'll be here with nothing left to say

So I'll take these pills to make it go away

I'll be here but never quite the same