turning the strings of my mind 

undistinguished knot of hate 

stolen knot of fear of waste 

dew on the furthest limits 

lividity of hatred against you 

rubbing raw against your game 

plays of dreams and circus schemes 

cuts and bruises line her face 

the stained dress soaked in warm piss 

diseased 

the circus queen 

abortion of your dreams 

diseased 

the circus queen 

abortion of your dreams 

i slit my wrists for solace 

drop by drop 

i'm creating my silence 

smile fill of rotten teeth 

glimmer in the moonlight 

drink from this pool of hate 

seal your fate 

i slit my wrists for solace 

drop by drop 

i'm creating my silence 

i slit my wrists for solace 

drop by drop 

i'm creating my silence 

mine will rise

delusions and fantasies 

all come screaming to a halt 

caught up in the board game of life and death 

equilibrium lost 

far from within 

i died and left a trail of madness behind 

demented bliss 

inebriation 

rise