there are no guarantees in life but one -
that eventually you'll die.
That's a guarantee you cannot escape from."

So I'm sitting here - all alone
It's always worse when no one's home
Why should I continue on
if death is the only final outcome?
To pursue some mythical success
that some have been fooled to think exists?
Only to meet frustration and die
still they go on trying and trying and...
I refuse to live that lie
but then what is there but to die?
I knew I require some change
But every day comes up the same...fruitless

FAILURE - so many say
I slow them down I'm in the way
SPINELESS - got me convinced they've reached
   security
WEAKLING - got me pegged
as if alone they've reached success
HOPELESS - all I am, the difference between

   This world betrays
   this world, it feasts upon me

FAILURE - far too weak
can't even stand on your own two feet
SPINELESS - you could never make it in this world
  of ours
WEAKLING - they scream at me
inside yourself is the strength you need
HOPELESS - the strong survive the weak are
   devoured

FAILURE - I feel defeat
but I see now they're hiding something
SPINELESS - draw my attention far away from hope
WEAKLING - away from God, away from Love
shake their fists at Him above
HOPELESS - could it be?  He shakes the world the
   lie they hold

My loneliness is evidence of my failure
to stay would mean to pursue some goal
Which has eluded me so far
they say I need no one else, only myself
unfortunately that way of life leaves me nothing
   but Hell

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