skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains move in my path 

the streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth 

My veins are anchored in this city - I am defeated by this lack of conviction 



I am crushed - by 800 miles - eyes widened in self loathing 

when the fucking dirt proves stronger 

than the most pure emotion that I've ever fucking had 

so what is left in life - but my destruction? 

why do my lungs still gasp - when I no longer breathe for you? 

where is the truth in my existence - when I have been cut off from 

your tender fingertips - all that I've known falls down around me 

every twisting tree and dead end street reminding me of you 

taking me back 

a year 

my life crawls on without you - amongst the endless snowing sheets 

disheartening moments of salvation come to me only when I am asleep 

I no longer stomach the denial - hiding the weakness of my being. 

the day to day has been a slow blur since you left 

only (your) forgiveness sets me free 

free 

the bridges - collapsing - hillsides are growing fast 

the pavement - is shifting - quicksand controls my will 

I question life and its true meaning 

I am defeated by this feebleness of will 

frenzied thoughts arrest my mind 

as I descend towards my eminent destruction 

the only thing I can rely on - when I lie even to myself 

skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains are closing in my path 

the streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth 

My veins are anchored in this city 

I am defeated by this lack of conviction 

am i already dead? I proceed hollow - unloved 

I am our burnt out memory - self muutilation is my mainstay 

tear me away - from the pictures of your face 

pry my eyes from your written word 

tear me away - from the bondage of regret 

convince me that I am alive 

this is the end - the end of everything 

all I held dear - has slipped from my grasp 

this is the end - the end of everything 

all whom I've loved - are fucking memories 

this is the end - the end of everything 

as I am ripe - for this demise 

this is the end - this is the end of everything 

I kneel - godless and beaten 

I long for moments when my eyes aren't blinded by emptiness.