I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old,
I know it's temporary but
I need to focus straight,
I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,
I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about,
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I am gonna win,
I can't afford to blow this one,
I hate myself sometimes,
I love myself,
I need this way of life because it holds me.
Contradiction's the way of life
Happiness is wealthyness is healthy now
I've made it through those lies and deceit,
I think what's done is done and I can't complain anymore
I am sure now that I've found myself again it feels great
I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate