the meaning my my life is all but gone

i have been betrayed by my own

a rollercoaser ride of emotions

pounding through the chambers of my heart

exploiting me like an open book

as i speak i can feel a tormenting pain within myself

creating an un-nerving disorder

controlling me body and soul until i am none

i fear the end

growing stronger every second increasing every day

there's no way of knowing how much more i can take

will there be a solution to this pain that i feel

wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal

wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal bitch

visions of anger

emanate from my mind

thoughts of the past are making me blind

there's a light that burns right before my eyes

i'll never know if all of thise lies

will come back to haunt me in the end

here i thought that you were a friend

someone special within my heart

you've taken my soul you've torn it apart

i can't seem to resist the power you possess over me

its ripping and digging draining me of my sanity

feel for me i'm in pain

open your eyes stand tall be a believer within your self

open your eyes stand tall you've gotta see the light

open your eyes stand tall you can do this on your own

open your eyes open your eyes to this

times of need you weren't there for me

fallen to the edge of my sanity

a train ride headed to no destination

living a life filled with procrastination

time ran out the end had to come

regrettably so it had to be done

living for you was all that i had

scars on my brain i'll never be the same again 

depression breaks through like a juggernaut

take a look inside and watch me rot

a lifeless shell that's about to break

just wanna see how much i can take 

how much i can take

how much i can take