When it's time to go to sleep I wonder which one I will fight 

Which torment will attack on any given night

The first will come and get me and force me to believe

That there really ain't a place for anyone like me



Or will it be those voices asking "why can't I succeed?"

Until the indignation burns so bad, my knuckles start to bleed

And the doubt comes on like drowning, until I can't get a breath

The desire's like some heart attack that never lets me rest



You win, you win

If it's gonna hurt this much...you win

Now I don't even care

I just wanted to be there

And the cool kids took the game away

Now I don't even want to play

You win...I hate this stuff



I slip into a party and I hope no one can tell

What I'm really like or how I'm really scared as hell

Somewhere, out of nowhere, my confidence comes back

And that little red caboose just starts to work that old smokestack



Ah, but I still hear these voices asking "who are you trying to be?"

And my reservations kick my ass until I have no idea

And the doubt comes on like drowning, until I can't get a breath

The desire's like some heart attack that never lets me rest