the sun is shining in my eyes. and all it makes me think 
of is you. i used to think it was redder than you. 
sometimes i feel it's not that much better than you, 
because all it shows is the holes that are left that you 
no longer occupy. if you only knew how bad i wish i could 
shut off my feeling like you do. i used to think that my 
belly was the only one you'd wrap your legs around. but 
now i know the hard truth that all dreams come way too 
ungently back to reality. but in my heart, i have all of 
these things that you just won't see until you open yours 
again. and you know i'd do anything for you. but there's 
only so much i can look past. and so much more that i 
can't forget. you're so gone, like the water in a river: 
always moving further along. and i'm a stone. a great, 
big, stuck stone. the greatest, biggest, stuckest stone. 
and i can't move on. i can't move on. i cant go on. God 
save me. girl help me.