hope is the only thing you can have when trying to 
recover. all the time in the world can't fix a thing. 
i'll just end up fooling myself. and that's the only way 
to get through - is to forget. but forgetting the facts 
does not change them. it won't change them. there is no 
getting through unless my world turns back around. and 
the only chance for that lies within hope. it lies in 
hope. tiny and weak. almost trickery. it fills every inch 
of my body inside, but it's nearly nothing everywhere 
else. it's the only drop of water i can place in this 
desert and pray something grows. i'll die holding my 
breath. i'll die hoping. i'll die hoping for you. i 
hope... i hope... that's the only thing that i will never 
give up on i hope. you're never not on my mind. i hope. i 
hope. i love you. and do you know that you're that last 
human thought that will go through my mind when i die. 
you'll always remain in my heart and in my hopes. my 
probably futile hopes. but it's all i've got. and it's 
all i'll ever have. i hope. i hope. and hey - i love you. 
God i love you. i love you. i loved you. i love you. i 
love you.