you have made me want my last days now, by pulling out 
the ground i was on. my faith in you, i told you, would 
be the last to try and make me believe in love. and i 
prayed. i hoped. i would cut my throat if that would make 
it all pull through. if i could know love was forever i'd 
breathe that in and die the next moment with the greatest 
smile. the smile i've always wanted. the smile i'd cut my 
hands off for. the greatest smile. the smile i've always 
wished i could have. the smile i'd burn my eyes out for. 
i hope i'm wrong. God, i hope im wrong.