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If this Life is filled with Lies then i wanna die 

If this Life is filled with Lies then i wanna die 



Vers 1 

Mum, you're the woman that I needed to look up to. 

I hated when I'm angry and every time I say: "Fuck you!" 

I always had a dream that you would be the special lady, 

who would guide me throw life and i would be your special baby 

Your life was more important with stupid fuckin' shit, 

a signal to my brain to put a smile on my face. 

I wanted to believe you were the perfect loving mother, 

but you were to busy to being someone elses lover. 

I hide all the pain and wish for attention. 

All i needed is your heart, i needed your affection. 

I did'nt wanna make this song but i almost choke, 

cause sometimes mum, i really losing hope. 



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Vers 2 

I finally got a contact person at sixteen, 

in that stages of my life still having bad dreams. 

She became the woman that I wanted you to be. 

Someone who gives me alot of love and simpathy, 

She was that woman but I pretended saying no. 

She gave me love and respect, all I wanted so. 

Remember the summer back in june -05, 

when you all leaved the house, 

then I jumped to suicide, 

taking all that pills when i was laying in my bed. 

Mum, I still remember your reaction and all the things you said. 

You acted I was so stupid, I deserve to die, 

then you went and left the phone all i could do was shipe and cry. 

Seven days later i'm moving out of the house 

cause you rater leave you're lonley daughter up in the sky. 

I hate you now more then ever, 

if you died now I would only say "whatever" 



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Vers 3 

I wanted you to know how much i tried to really love you, 

there was another woman but i put noone above you. 

Her name was Elina and she treated me like gold, 

like i was her only daughter but all i did was leave a hole. 

the thoughts in your brain, damn! It makes me crazy. 

I'm soon 21, but still acting like a baby. 

I hate that i love you cause you can not love me back, 

the way i want you to i'm runnin' to the days when i got smack. 

Mum, you need alot of help but you never gonna take it, 

you ripping out my heart and i allowing you to break it. 

I know you need a father figure, it's just too late. 

I need you as my mother, taking reath extra hate. 

Remember all the times that we laugh and get along, 

I wish that you could kiss me and edmit that you are wrong. 

My heart is really scared and my head is really wounded, 

I hope you hold my hand before the rest of me is wroend. 



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