i am nothing i feel nothing that's why i hurt you

my hearts blacker than black now

that's why i hurt you

you deserve so much better that's why i hurt you

i hate myself that's why i hurt you

i am starting to feel sick it's hard for me to breathe

i wish that i could laugh so please help me conceive

all that's happened is too hard to believe

so much confusion please help me breathe

i am here to cause pain that's why i hurt you

i feed off of my own that's why i hurt 

i am a selfish fuck that's why i hurt you

i had to go away that's why i hurt

my chest has caved in salt's burning my eyes

curled up in a fetal position i despise

this moment i despise