No, I
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go if I feel like I can't stay
And I can't
Bring myself to walk in
It's like a shield of fear that likes to keep me away

But when the rain
Washes my window
When the grass stands just beyond my toes
When the weeds grow under the concrete stones
When there's no one waiting

No, I
I don't wanna show up
Not when all my problems seem to vanish when I sleep
And I know
I know something's changing
When the picture frames keep falling and breaking at my feet

But when the rain
Washes my window
When the grass stands just beyond my toes
When the weeds grow under the concrete stones
When there's no one waiting

No
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know or address this mess I've made
And though they're intricate
My words can't fix it
So I'll try 'till I'm out of retrograde