So maybe this is what it's like

to not remember what it's like

not having you around

and I don't believe

you'd be here if you could

but then again

you never said you would

I make up promises you never made

to waste space and time

and make like I'm doing fine

make like I'm having a fun time


out of my heart

so I feel nothing

so I can't get hurt

so I won't care anymore

I'll be fine if I never feel a thing again

I'll be even better I'll be all the better

then & only then


come and take away my want

it doesn't matter what I want

I hear lobotomies are free these days

I doubt now

your gestures are sincere

you goddamn piece of shit broken mirror

I don't know what I want

or what I've got


what's free is yours

I don't care if you break my heart