I get the strangest ideas, get drunk, 

leave angels in tears turning flames into painful affairs

so  now I’m lying here draining beers

I can’t explain it’s weird got me thinking damn maybe I’m scared

coz I’d like someone to listen to but I hate having to tell them 

I’m sorry for not missing you

feeling cold and this is difficult 

guess love differs your periphial view sort of like sniffing glue

it was cool I know you hoped for us

didn’t mind that I smoked so much 

I saw the signs, you opened up, gave me time 

and everything was fine till I fucked up and broke your trust 

but  even so you never showed disgust

it’s like I find a surprise and all I wanted was to drown in her eyes

and lay surrounded by the sound of the skies

but I guss I never tried so for all of those lies 

I apologise



“My intent was not to fail you all 

See I’m just trying to change my stars  

Got me locked at these crossroads thinking which way should I go 

which way should I go 

anticipating what the next day’s bringing  

Try to prepare with your heartbeat racing 

It’s kind of like  when I’m writing my flows

thinking which way should I go

which way  should I go” 



Guess I’ve proven to be a handful 

coz it’s like every other day another scandal

had a career but now they saying that it’s cancelled 

ain’t that a whole lot of shit to be playing for some uncleared samples?

quite more than I can stand for

but then again I kind of like your damn show coz my shit went gold

another shipment sold and all the other kids enrolled

coz what they do  now I did before

and some of them did know

those who didn’t

now they heard it from you

so you’re the fool bringing my words into school

you’re just a tool i can use gaining success

now everyday is another I don’t give a fuck-fest

I just like the truth /there really ain’t that much left

and I don’t see how me talking about my life can make you upset

that’s too much stress you need to relax

and look around maybe jesus is back

go find him 



chourse



Sometimes I wish that no one on this earth could stand me

if I deserved to be loved I wouldn’t hurt my family

fill my body with drugs while giving birth to panic 

it’s like I’m just another worthless addict

shit,I ain’t even working at it 

though I know, nobody’s perfect

I feel I’ve lost my right to ask for a purpose

it seems I just make it worse and search beneath the surface 

and try to find some light up in this circus

but I’m nervous all I see is the mistakes I made

cut me open like a razor blade

and in these motherfucking crazy days feel my faith uncovered

pray the doctors will save my brother 

think about the promises people make each other

but life interferes

got to do right by them that cared 

ive been a burden for them to bear 

so I know I can’t end it hereThanks to thudord@yahoo.com