I can't come to grips with all my pain. I can't come to grips with all that I lost. Now I find myself hurt by something I never had. Everything that I think will bring me happiness, brings me nothing but pain. I hate the things that I feel. So many feelings I don't understand. I've opened myself up, just to be torn apart. I let my emotions get the best of me. All my pain I bring upon myself. It hurst so bad not being able to find a familiar smile. Nothing is the same. Nothing is familiar to me anymore. I hate the things that I feel. So many feelings I don't understand. I've opened myself up, just to be torn apart. I let my emotions get the best of me. All my pain I keep inside. I feel so alone, so lost within myself. I just want someone to tell me that I'll be okay, someone to truly care. Someone who understands how I feel. Someone to just be there. I've felt this pain for far too long, and have been hurt too many times. I've felt this pain for far too long, and have been hurt too many times.