How can I make it
how can I do this
how can I rate it
it will never be enough

Don’t seem to stop it
never grown out of it
never wear it out
never shake it off

Paralyzation
so puzzled about it
and no one seems to be who
they claimed at first hello

So disappointed 
‘though it all pointed
a recommendation
of letting it all go

So I built a little house for my self
in a new country where no one could see
all my mistakes and all my troubles
only my winnings would reach through the door

Everything's floating
I don’t seem to cope with
this fucked up behavior
what have I become

don’t wanna mention
don’t wanna name it
just wanna sleep now
don’t wanna make a fuss

Without paying the hour
I become my own counselor
I see all the patterns
an ancient spell

But no solution
I've got no solution
instead I just push it
push it 'til I fall

So I drilled a little hole in my chest
to put off the pressure
steamin' from within
all my mistakes and all my troubles
only my winnings would reach through the skin

So I drilled a little hole in my head
to let out some demons
that keep feeding on my brain
all my mistakes and all my troubles
only my winnings would reach through my mouth