the humble and righteous and meek
are teaching me whose will to seek
but who really knows how to speak
about these things questions of where can he go
when he is feeling so low
and kicking himself just to show
how he still bleeds and i want to know the difference
between what sparkles and what is gold
i wonder how many eyes are fixed like a vultures on me
now i wonder if i can even move or breathe without disappointing someone
and i know what they call themselves
but i don't remember inviting them to put me
on this pedestal and make me feel so naked
afraid to look down
afraid to turn around
i bring it on myself
i know i bring it on myself
and i want to know the difference between what sparkles
and what is gold
i walked along beside the purple mountains
beneath the orange sky
imagined what it all might look like with these planks out of my eyes
i wondered if the big white horse was coming down tonight
i wanted to taste that victory
but my mouth was dry my mouth was dry
(there is only tonight and the light that bleeds
from your heart makes me want to try and start again).