I am so sorry. I've made amends

I've kept my peace and bent my neck

I know the pattern, I know the sound

and I have twisted it around

The chance to speak passed me by

Remaining frozen in dead time

Honesty stripped of its meaning

I would not hurt you again

You have my heart, you have my hands

Pinning me down when I'm leaving



Moving without sense or sign

Uprooted, and the pain refined

How long can the silence hold?

Where were you when I grew old?



Move me in my lack of faith

Unhand me when it's all too late

How long can your arm hold strong?

Where are you when I am wrong?



I know you well enough



On the treshold of speaking of truces

Then the mouthful of still, hollow fear

There's no name to the path I am choosing

Time is passing, but I am still here 

to see it through



Will I carry this burden forever?

My hands moving with words you won't hear

My heart beating the pulse for the deathbed

It's my kingdom. Here I am it all

So I know it each time you are lying

I can tell from the shame in your eyes

And each time there's a piece of me dying

but you know that I never compromise



Drowned inside you, all embraced

Grown to love the safety it gave

All protection ripped away

Never leave me alone and mute again



How long can the silence hold?