if i get tired and frightened 

at the bottom of my mind 

clawing out the insides 

knowing what's behind 

if i get bored you'll see me 

wearing out my face 

you know it isn't easy 

filling up that space 

crushed and faded 

suddenly so complicated 

crawling back to you 

something cold 

slipping through 

and i know it couldn't stay 

here another day 

and i don't need to 

i don't need to ever know the way 

it's only when you hold me 

that sometimes i'd forget 

kicking back the outsides 

and take what i can get 

it's the way you move your body 

a pleasent cold release 

it makes me think it's dirty 

when i'm on my knees 

crushed and faded 

suddenly so complicated 

crawling back to you 

well something cold 

slipping through 

and i know it couldn't stay 

here another day 

and i don't need to 

i don't need to ever know the way 

i never ever lost control 

i never ever lost control 

in a light shining 

in a quiet end 

i know i never ever lost control