Baby, I don't really know
if I'm lying to you
or hiding the truth from myself.
I'm sorry I'm numb
but you deserve to feel dumb
if you thought I was somebody else.

I down cups of sludge
and stay up forever,
'cuz I'm too afraid of what happens when I fall asleep.

You can't drift away if you keep on holding tight.
Trust me it's not worth the fight.

Baby I swear that I don't really know
if I'm lying to you
or hiding the truth from myself.
I'm sorry I'm numb
but you deserve to feel dumb
if you thought I was somebody else.

I know that you checked my pulse
to see if I was freaking out,
'cuz you were freaking out.
But I remain comatose
from coast to coast,
'cuz everyone I care about is miles away.
Can't figure out the words to say.
I made a mistake.

It's not my fault if I can't see
how you could fall so easily.
And I am never going to be
what you saw inside of me.

I'm thinking of
reasons not to love you,
ways I can push you away.
And it's safe to assume
when you step in this room
you should thank your stars for every day.

And I don't really know
if I'm lying to you
or hiding the truth from myself.
I'm sorry I'm numb
but you deserve to feel dumb
if you thought I was somebody else.