Look, I woke up without a heart beat

But I remember we was just in the car deep

Was at a light and got approached by a car thief

He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys

A loud noise without a voice  but I'm tryna scream out shit is not fair

I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here

Surrounded by all white maybe its just cloudy

Escorted by two men who knew everything about me

Both of them so strong kept saying hold on

Feel like my souls gone naked no clothes on

I know this can't be my fate I scream WAIT!

as they drop me infront of a gate

They left no trace...

I can see my every breath like a cold day

Stood before a man with no face 

he said to me...



Please don't make this any harder...



WHO THE FUCK IS YOU?



My child I'm your father...



I only got one dad!



Is that a fact to you? He left you when you was young I brought him back to you

Your real close to heaven, few get to step in

now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in?



Look I'm far from a christian Not big on religion

But aint done too much wrong my entire time living

Never killed never tried too tho I been lied to

Was once suicidal never read the bible

I always been a care taker tried to nurse people

At times it back fired hurt people hurt people

Plus I never use your name in vain

But you should know everything I'm being asked to explain



I know you stole from your mothers purse



You can't count that, that was way back when!



Its still a sin



But I was ten!



You robbed people, stole



Yeah and YOU made me see jail!



but I also seen you lay your hands on a female

sold drugs to parents none of that was needed

abandenned your child, on every girl you cheated

Done wrong to people that only want the best for you

Any time you thought you were alone I was next to you



When it came to baby moms GOD you gave me the worse one!



but that was your second child Joe you shouldn't killed the first one



I aint have a job aint have a pot to piss in



Look I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision

Held onto resentments even in doing business

I lead by example, I teach forgiveness your entry can not be Gur-an-teed

not when you live with anger, envy, greed

pride, sloth, lust even gluttony

everything you shouldn't if you woulda joined my company



Look I'm only human I aint perfect.



That I understand. When I take you out a jam

you don't even think to worship, and when you do...

you never talk about what you can do for me its what I can do for you?

I blessed you with health, family and wealth

with all the blessings you received you still always want help



Yeah theres been times in my life  I needed help to make money 

But why everything I love you manage to take from me?

Yet you stand there an question a nigga that tries hard

and finds a way when you keep dealing them FUCKED up cards!

You make mistakes like ME far as I can see

I think its a mockery whenever rich niggas win the lottery

Gave us Busch twice God I hate to be rude 

But you let skinny niggas starve give obese niggas food

THE NERVE of you telling me I don't deserve to stay here

When you gave us drugs and GUNS you put AIDS here!

Take a look at you, your actions are cold hearted

The harsh shit is you bring babies in the world retarded

I know most my actions put me in a cell

But how you mad at me when you put me in the hell



See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample

I never give a person anything they cant handle

Don't tell me about everything you had to go through

there's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you

Kept trying with you all you did was hurt me

still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy

and so I sat with you on a train I asked you for change

you kept calling me names. Prolly didnt notice

I was the store clerk, you put the gun to me get money for more work

my child I know you have it in you to indeed stop

this is not your final calling just a brief stop

Hope you heed my words and understand

so when I see you back you should be a better man

look at life different the next time we see each other

there be no need for talk whenever we meet each other