im addicted period. you know. i mean like. and its weird because so many of the 

population, so much of the population is addicted or - or you know compulsive. 

and impulsive. im really, like, compulsive about shit. when i cant fix my head 

with, you know, with a certiain drug or whatever ill clean somehitng up. you 

know. or i'll, i get really like, fucking fidgety and uncomfortable and i get, 

i fly off the handle easy, you know. its like if its not, if im not gorging 

myself on, on, on one thing im fucking...im trying to fill that, that hole some 

other way, you know what i mean. its always this great feeling of need and it 

doesnt ne-necessarily have to be of anything in particular, its just something 

that you dont know what it is which drives you that much more insane sometimes. 

you know. and thats what a lot of people today, um, suffer from and a lot of 

people dont even realise it. you know. i dont profess to know everything about 

it but. u know. i dont know. i just uh. i know that theres that hole that needs 

t

o be filled. and uh. a lot of people die trying.