Why am I f**king up so bad?

What am I even doing?

When am I ever gonna learn?

What it is she already knows



Baby, I met you in downtown Chicago

But I, I had to drive away the very next day

So I, flew your pretty ass to New York City

Then I, I left you in L.A



Was it love or my fantasy?

Was it real or just a dream?



Remember one night getting too f**ked up in the Hamptons at Tom's

I fell off his bike, and girl, you laughed at me so hard

Spent a whole week getting drunk on the dunes of Cape Cod, that's when you met my father



Was it love or my fantasy?

Was it real or just a dream?

Was it love or my fantasy?



Cause sometimes you get so angry

And I take it personal

And I should've known

That you were only hurting

Cause life can be uncertain

When you're only 19 years old



So it's another late night out here in California

And I'm, I'm burying my pain into somebody else

And now you're back at home living with your mama

Got my first record sitting on your shelf



Was it love or my fantasy?

Was it real or just a dream?

Was it love or my fantasy?

Was it real?



Well baby I met you in downtown Chicago

But I, had to drive away the next day

So I, flew your pretty ass to New York City

Then I, I left you in L.A