Endless parade of gross perversions

Like pins pushed into my brain

However short-lived it may be

I remember the sweeteness of the pain

Is the greater sin the act I commited

Or the lie later expressing disgust

That doesn't exist most of the time

A lack of morals or a lack of trust?



No more blood in my heart

Just concrete pouring in

Protection from conviction

Mortared by my sin

My face slowly turns to stone

No one gets inside

Now I have my secret place

Now I can hide



The white I wore in my dreams

Irrevocably blackened

Anger settling over my eyes

At finding myself lacking

I let them into my darkest halls

And I hate myself for it

They never knew as they overturned things

What was being destroyed



Replaying and reliving

The dark passages of my life

Smiling as I wreak the vengeance

I can never realize

My hands and eyes stay on me

I have made my choice

The big man I am inside

Will never use my voice



I make the lame excuses I heard before

And didn't tolerate

I look into the mirror

And what I see I surely hate

Wretch that I am

Who'll free me from the body of death

The answer's written in my stone

Waiting for my breath