She's laughing while I'm crying

She's smiling while I'm dying

I wish I could stop 

I'm so tired of trying

I just wanna give up

I just wanna let go 

Cuz I would do anything for her 

Anything to show

Show how much I care

Make her see that I'll always be there 

But she won't look at me now.

And she's laughing while I'm crying 

Smiling while I'm dying

I wish I could stop

I'm so tired of trying

I met her so long ago-

We seemed so close

I told her all I wanted 

But there's so much she doesn't know

She doesn't really know me

She thinks there's nothing left to learn 

She doesn't seem to care I'm gone and that I won't return

And...

She's laughing while I'm crying

She's smiling while I'm dying

My very best friend, right?

-I'm so sick of all the lying



I'm so confused-was ANY of it real?

I can't even explain to myself these feelings that I feel 

There's so many parts of me-

some good and many bad

Some that I want to be-but some that just make me sad

So many parts of me 

And half of them are lying 

The question is-

Is the piece of me that's laughing while I'm crying?

I think she means well, she's helped me through so much

She was always in the picture of my life that she has touched

Without her along with me, my life would've been hell,

But now she's part of the pieces of me that are starting to rebel-beginning to give up…letting things slip away…

part of me that made me wonder where I really wanted to stay.



Part of me that's making me feel so sad-

When I know I really shouldn't

And I can take nothing back

But if I could I probably wouldn't 

I love her for life-

No matter WHO says that I shouldn't.

And I'll always be around

And all always do what I can do 

To help her through hard times and help make her dreams come true.

I'll always do my best 

To make sure she's alright 

I wanna HELP her

I want her happy 

For this I pray each night

I love her so much 

I just hope that it's real...

And I don't understand it-

I probably never will.

But I'm so so happy that-

She's laughing while I'm crying

She's smiling while I'm dying

-but I'm so confused and I'm

So tired of trying.