i found the list of reasons to stay in their place but a 
false reply from aninner voice is all i hear. it screams 
to me like shallow calls to forfeit my place and become 
who i was years ago. it sees this: on nights so long you 
stand there with all your friends. on night so long i 
stand there with my hands and eyes and thoughts across 
the room. you call me and i hear the voice a friend 
hears. i call you and you hear the voice a fan hears. i 
call her and i call myself the fool. but she knows it's 
more than i've been used to. on nights alone you stand 
there. it's hard to make a friend. on nights alone i 
stand there. and she stands with me.