I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping it'd all work out

I was losing patience

you know it's never been my best trait

counting minutes, hours, counting days



then it dawned on me

unpredictabilty

I told myself everything's just fine

you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive



I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping it'd all work out

will it all work out



now I feel exposed

like a black light on the wall in a darkened room

all the dirt appears

you can see my fears

I don't want to let my guard down



you know I never had the feeling

that you would prey on my insecurities

you know I never had the feeling

that you would prey on these insecurities I have



why is this wait taking so long

counting minutes, hours, counting days

I'm losing patience



don't think this means I'm walking away

I won't let fear get the best of me

now it's up to me

I wouldn't change a thing

(DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)