i want you to find me
but i don't want you to touch me
seems so disgusting
to be handled like a doll
i'm not trying to be dramatic
i'm trying to be nothing
so when you find i've finally done it
please burn me where i lay

things aren't getting any better
things are only getting worse
i'll apologize for the mess of my life
for the rest of my life, forever
unless you promise, promise to kill me first

i want you to find me
but i don't want a big party
hiding my body in the ground
so your version of the story is safe for the rest of your lives
i'm crying for attention
i'm done
i'm trying to resign
so when you find i've finally done it
forget my name and set my stupid fucking corpse on fire

i'm not afraid
why should i be?
i've got all my friends from baltimore right here with me
i'm not afraid
why should i be?
i've got all my friends from highschool right here with me

eventually i'll have to take them
on my break if i don't shake less
empty hands. the fire's left
they can't quite fight with their old strength
i'm so tired
i'm torn up
it's over now
you can make me normal

your eyes are broken
you must lose them
take the pills
kill the delusions
you can't see it's adaquate
so swallow while you can't fix

i havn't shaken in what seems like forever
i have let go of all my old obsessions
i'm healthy i am better
there's no more songs so when i'm dead and gone
i know it won't be the new me they rememeber
but i don't need my eyes to see
my eyes have only lied to me
recognize the time for quitting
and your vision will outlive them all