Why do I learn enough to just get by? 

Enough to make my family cry 

Will I ever escape and would it ever last? 

Or will I crawl back? 

This is not the life I asked for 

I'm face to face with all my demons 

Turnmy head but can't ignore 

This state I'm in 

Will I get to the next? 

Will I ever get to have some rest? 

Knowing that everything's all good 

Barely scraping by, never ahead 

Sick of asking help from friends 

Will I ever wake up before it's out of hand 

When will I learn? 

I tell myself to calm down 

Sit back,just relax 

No need for a heart attack 

But I'm having trouble shaking disappointment

Sorry Mom and Dad