So 5 years later. Man it feels like less than that 
tonight. It almost feels like you passed on just 
yesterday. All I know is that I still feel so fucking 
lost and so fucking confused. I just want everything to 
be like it was before that day. It's time to move on with 
my life time to stop running from the past. And I know 
nothing I can do will ever bring you back. It's time to 
move on with my life time to stop running from the past 
but with every step forward I will never forget. There 
are times when all I want is something to take it all 
away. And on those days I feel like a sieve and I let 
always felt everything flows straight though except for 
the same emptiness I always felt. I know nothing I can do 
will ever bring you back. It's time to stop running from 
my past it's time to move on with my life. I have broken 
down. I have built myself back up. I have worn masks to 
mask my masks from myself and to this very day I want to 
shut my eyes. Shut it all out push it away. But I don't 
have to have my guard up anymore. I've wasted too much 
time and I can't wait forever. It's time to move on time 
to move on time to move and let it all out.