SECRET NO.7

We feel just like 

Two criminals 

With unknown crimes

It's not your fault

It's always mine.





THE SPANISH DAGGER

Well stop cashing me in for a thin line

You're right on track to know what it feels like to lose more than you've ever gained

Charges pending further investigation

You've got to expect that you're falling from graces

Rehearsing all your persona will need when you're front-page fighting (aim) for your dignity

I almost taste the the irony

How fiction replaces history

Use daunted glow to light your page



You say those feelings of doubt will never cut across your mouth

I know that Socrates and impurities are getting you down

You'll take all they've got to get your fill

Your time is running out 

You're getting carried away because no one cares about your fame

I see the dagger in your name

Deny your roots for future rain, for future reign



Add one more kill to raise your worth  

It's so sad, cause it's all the truth you have

Trade breath for gold

There's no Armageddon when banks are there to relieve you

Why prevent yourself to take wealth from someone else

Dare to incite yourself when you're your only foe

You're carried away

Nothing's real about your fame

I can see you drown in your own wake

So pale, so thin you'd float away

I see you trying so hard 

So no one will ever take your place when you feel the dagger brush your face

Well I deny myself what I can take when I can waitand expect the same



Incriminated, your teeth still shine over the suffering

Deceiving trade, but the blade will shine.



CINEMA SPINE

Just a little bit of feeling in your stories and I'm ready rearing to go

Just a little bit of grieving in the words you relate and I'm alright



Crash land, insist, can't exist on frailty

I always crash land, resist, exaggerated authority



Just a little bit of bleeding in your stories and I'd be really wanting to know- how they treat internal bleeding when they're dying to be the future glow



All attacks come two by two

We've been gliding, so far just spinning our wheels



When all the bodies fall do they face the sky

To choose which star to make it home

When all the bodies fall is it finally quiet

Or does their last heartbeat echo till they're gold



Crash land, resist, re-define a dire need

Crash land, in this unassuming reality



When all the bodies fall will they shun the light

And dust their feet on brittle stone

And all this time is wasted on an assembly line

To keep things plain enough to be sold



Tell me something to ease my worry, tell me something to calm me down

Tell me something to prove your story, a shot of sodium pentathol

Tell me something that's not too late to deny

Why would anybody treat your right



We already know how the actors feel.



MIRACLE MILE

I'm ready to blow

It's not my fault

Don't waste a four-leaf clover

Good happens to the owner 

Just wait, when the leaves fall

They go below your faults



Now you're just boring me to death

I've got a catacomb underneath the same place I lay my head

I've gotta bury them blind and then control what they find

I'm hanging on a thread

You know I'm ready to blow like I've told you I would



Out of nothing you find your own authority

Cleanse the water to send your holy blessings

I'm flying solo, I'm falling so low, where do we go

Out of nothing you find your own authority

Forbidden honor will go as far as atrophy

I'm flying solo

I'll go



Now you're just boring me to death

I've got a cataract focused on a shaky conscience at best (shaky guest)

I've got to make up my mind and try to make up some time

I'm hanging on a thread



You know I'm ready to blow, but not quite yet

You know I'm ready to fold, can't count my cards yet

You know I'm ready to forget all we've been through

You know I'm ready for you



The shaken are desperate for new sounds on old ground 

To bury reflections, infections from strong hands in weak glands

And when they're awakened their vision will fade



It aint a bit of my fault

I'm gonna miss her.



TWENTY-FOUR MINUS EIGHTEEN

Confidence, coming clean, ambivalent to everything

24 minus 18, find a problem for everything

Don't try to tell me what I mean

Don't try to build yourself from the outside

Don't try to make yourself; you'll break every time

Don't try to take your guilt and leave it behind

I carry mine



This lust will defeat us

I've learned too many times

You cuss when you see us

I'm taking all this in stride



I breathe too hard 

My lungs are scarred



Have you tried to arrest yourself, arrested in time

Why change if you can't find the time

Try to make the most of this or get left behind

Everything comes at a price



You trust us when you need us

Why do I feel there's nothing inside

This crutch will relieve us

How can I fix this if I haven't tried



I want to send you roses before your death is staged

When understanding violence, suspects know their fate

I want another reason why I never help myself

I waste my days regretting why



Celebrate, Semper fi, Sic Transit Gloria



If you don't intend to go, never say that you want to 

Stay home until you know, life's short, but quite a ride

Got 8 months to go, a tightened grip will get you through

Don't forget your goals, time is on your sideas long as you're alive



You want some closure 

You almost finished

But couldn't fool your pride

Out of nothing, fake forgiveness

Never satisfied. 

(What if I'd lied)



JAWS OF LIFE

I'm caught up in the jaws of life

What can heal can also tear you up inside



Writing down your own anthem

You don't like the older one

I would stand at attention for less than minimum

Wage your own forgotten wars

Trade honor for canker sores

Ghostly pride with matching tours

You're childish without the joy



I know that I said I would change

I know that I haven't changed

A shoulder to lean on and then break/embrace

I'm barely breathing with my status day to day



Caught off guard by innocence

I cross my heart you influences pull you down

I swear it's not the fault of mine or of the fault of anyone



So tell me what the guilt feels like

Are you swallowed in the jaws of life

When you strip people down you'll see how they don't need their cover 

Is it clear and defined when fists from a simple conflict rise

And we turn into monsters we thought were once extinct.

(I could tell you things to shock you too)



GOODNIGHT QUIET NOISE

You're full of spite and I know the reason why

Your alibi will never hold up to mine



Standing up when paralyzed 

Pull the cloak over your eyes

It aint enough to be a mountain tall

Adding up, so name the price

Spent your lot to turn on a dime

Remove your mask to make a curtain call



Something's calling me out to the boulevard

My thoughts need cages until the morning

When night it rises like the tide I feel I'm underneath I'm drowning in nothing at all



Make amends before you start the fight

Finding out why you should sleep at night

The blood will boil then solidify



You better see this, you won't believe it

You can't avoid the way they perceive you to be

They're still behind you 

They're catching up to hold you to the back of the line.



SPLIT LIP ENVY

I'm just a token of your flirtation

Nothing more than a description

You're just a guy, just a kid from a place where your philosophy is a catastrophe

Wake up split lip, you're not that cool

Put your words in quotes then call yourself Vegan

Turn up, off, on your stupid song and sing 

Words about the things you know and what you think you have to show her



As for myself, I think it's obvious that I'm envious of you



Tell me now what you've got to look forward to

I hear they're hiring at the dairy queen 

Your whole story has been a disappointment

Your poetry is just a joke to me

Anything and everything about the affection

That you get when what you've got then

10 times 42, what's that got to do with anything this song's about

This jealousy I'll do without



Where am I in this fairytale, this nightingale counters what I had in mind 

and leaves me depressed and despised.



PARANOIA PAYS OFF

I'll try to get your attention so I can clear my name

(I know you don't care) because I've seen my picture on your dartboard

Bleed without pain

You're always so violentblah, blahto spite your face



I'll try to understand the words you yell at me

I've simply become someone you abhor

Have you discovered that you need to change your ways

When out in the open and sense of direction just fades away



You've never been sorry for a thing you've said

Have I told you that there's nothing I can't take from you



It's just decent to wait a while before you go and make a fool of me

Break through with a crescent smile, got to plan ahead for broken teeth

It's too late to defend yourself, I saw you laying down beside the things we'd never talk about

But go on believing

See, my paranoia is paying off.



I've been to/stayed at all the places I never felt I'd ever be calling home.



WHEN THE FEELING FADES

It aint over, but it feels like it is done

Getting older and dignified

I thought we could go out for a ride 

Look at gravesites and pretend that we're inside

Trade headstones for the night



Relax and just settle down

This hesitation will not be wasted

We can't cross hidden lines

You know it helps like nothing else to taste the wind when you prepare to fly



“Olli-Olli-Oxen-Free” if you can't find a victim then you're hunting for me

So when the legs I have won't move I've got a good place to hide

Under cover, I'm hating all the things you say but don't mean

You're an imposter and I've seen you changing sides

You're a dictator and we all drink to your pride



We'll get this right 

We'll leave all the talking for another night

It's never kind, but we don't mind

You can't inspect a soul after it dies



Relax and just settle down

This hesitation is not complacent

(It's clear) We can't defend these lines

You know it helps like nothing else to lean through the windowsill within your mind



You give of yourself now

You think for yourself now

You cry by yourself now 

Because you want to be let down

You're a martyr with guest lists

You'll never make a birthday wish

Well you can't be without gifts 

Because you need to be glorified



I can see why you're mortified when the feeling fades

Time won't ever be on your side

Are your feelings mine?



ABRACADAVER

So you see yourself holding the knife though it seems you're more terrified than the faces you practice at night, so you can watch your tongue sympathize



We all know it's wrong, but pretend that it's/we're innocent



Get out of the way 

You say that you can't move

We'll drag you away to rot in your test tube

Congratulate me just when you need to

So captivating that I rot in place



Innocence fools you

It cuts you into pieces

You try to find a way to live or way to die

The decadence coerces you in zines & books & movies

I know I'm right this time



Get out of the way

You say that you can't move and threaten to stay

Well, chalk up a new bruise

Like a thief in the night

So planned and deliberate

No use for a knife, if you can't hide itright?



You fall out of photographs and skin up your knees 

Pulled under the undertow I'm so sorry you're sorry



We all know it's wrong

(Here we go)

We'll all get along



Get out of the way

It's clear I can't trust you 

You gamble with fate 

A downfall for refuge

You reciprocate while plotting your next move

It's not fair to complain from miles away



LOW END OF LUXURY

Waitingstalemate

Collect all your things for what they're worth

(You've got me leaving messages all night)

Wedding presents postmarked eternity

Will you return to the sender



You're paced too slow

The price of life

Save a collapsed lung

Take long distance shrugs

Leave a light on not a siren



So what's your story

Have you change that too

The ring slipped through your fingers, but still you can't let it go



I'm lost and found in some low end of luxury

(I'll start my packing when you start to fall asleep)

It's just the same as it's always been

I've lost my will for anything



It's not rational why you'll go

Hear it in her voice

She regrets her choice

Giving up by nomination

Once more just say it softly

the ring slipped through your fingers, but still you can't let go



Its hard to know what makes us fall apart

Its hard to want to stop it when it starts

Its hard to know what makes us fall apart

Scars jump at a chance to make a mark.



ARRIVE ALIVE

You try to make this last

But your candles burn too fast

Divided before you were born

Were you divided from your former you



You'll never make it far

Well it's time, so let go of my arm

You're dying north of 40 

You are destined for its solitude



Just pull the cover over your eyes

Or do what just feels good

It's easy to be content about your life

Until it's over



Why does this feel so good

Won't somebody tell me while I'm alive

Why can't I withstand my lust is so much stronger than my love for life

(It's just fate to play)



Will you take over when I'm bleeding

Watch me squeeze out every pint I've got

It's over

I can feel it

Well-rehearsed accidents prepare to stop

And I am trying

Know what you want before you start



I read your diary (to get to know you)

I skipped right to the end (I don't feel guilty)

Empty pages (of untold stories)

For days you didn't want to live (oh well, you've given up)



Too late to decide my fate or re-write autobiographies

And though I just woke up, I feel that I'm washed up

You're always fake (you fear the worst)

Because you've been betrayed (so well rehearsed)

It's your fault I can believe handshakes

I've gone far enough, that's why I'm washed up

It's over, I mean it

It's over, I believe it now

I'm washed up.



AFTER ARGUMENTS

Deathbeds and guarded borders

Bedpans and doctors orders

Move on and leave the weak behind

Back stabs and painted on smiles

It's easier to die admired

From here there is no turning back



Fall out of focus 

Arguments end where you leave them

(What's it take to be satisfied)

You battle your progress

Arguments fend for themselves



I've been shot down too many times

I guess I blame myself for targets I can't defend

A Punishment will never fit a crime

Well should I go ahead with this, if I could go ahead at all

I'd be more confident if you'd admit you're wrong



Do I need to chalk your lines

Victims precede the crime

You're blaming yourself next time

We'll take turns to cover the tracks that we leave behind

You use me to waste your time

Your grudges carry themselves just fine

Regrets, I take yours if you'll take mine

A fair trade for lightning bolts, landmines or genocide



Unplug the phone, I need it quiet

All we have left is all we hold on to 

I don't care anymore, let's put this aside

I'll scream with my last breath, “I'm alright”

All we have left is all we lay next to



White boys, start your own KKK

You look like you're good for nothing anyway

Just like your parents before you

And just like your faceless neighborhood



I know that I'm the one, I feel just like Shakakahn

If it's not for me, it can't be right for anyone

I blame the cynics and the sun

So goodnight.



UNFIT

I'm just not fit to go on and neither is anyone

I've always needed a crowd just like an orphan



I don't deserve this at all

Strike that

I deserve all I get

I could be walking on water and complain that my feet get wet



But I'd be fine if you'd let go



I've always known the places of those who run for cover

The camera angle i've taken is wrong



I'll let it be, I'll let it go...if you say so



You make me feel like I'm a salesman and somehow I'm caught with red hands

Tightrope over reason like a skeptic with plans

You look at me for your desire, but I'm using all I have

If you get off on your placement then get off my back.



Just say the words 

Then fall into these arms

Just say the words

I know this feeling can't be/isn't right.