Push me out from the darkness

To a sky that's colored blue

Somewhere someone's finding happiness

While I'm still here so hung up on you



Nothing is real

And I want you to know

That I'm not alright

When you tear open my chest

I'll try not to flinch

I won't make promises (Won't make promises)

You taught me that. 

I'm still losing what's left of my self-esteem

And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams



The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most

So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know

The easiest thing to fake is a feeling to fool someone else

And I've been tricked for so long by you

that I spent these last few months in my own hell



A failed apology

A day too late but now I see

That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree

But what would you need me for

You've got friends galore

And all you've ever be to me is a waste of time and nothing more



I hate myself

For loving you like this

And I hate myself for hating myself

Just enough to love you

Just enough to love you