seconds

once ignored - now cherished 

as they begin to tick away 

panting, like a dog in the wind 

throat constricted 

swelling as a tumor - i can scarcely breathe 

my eyes stand in the way 

to the world i need to see 

hazy melting images coated in glue 

begin sliding from my view 

and i trample on top of them 

now a blind fool 

now a blind fool 

oh my heavy, heavy aching legs 

cannot do the work of ten men 

to lift my feet of stone 

clumsy, my arms 

long and leaden - they drag behind me 

carving deep trenches in the rotting earth 

oh so tightened 

stretched beyond belief 

my skin cracks 

with the weight of my dying body 

and the rage in my head 

blood trickles down from my burning eyes 

and stings my charred lips 

oh dear god - if you would but save me

so much as a finger on my hand 

surely i could find the strength to climb 

atop a cloud in your sky 

and echo your praises 

into the light of a new day 

but my words are lost 

as my bones 

snap suddenly 

and i am left to lie upon the burning remnants of my life 

seconds 

eternity 

the clock ceases inside of me 

oh this silence, this emptiness inside 

for the grinding of my teeth at the searing pain 

of my flesh and the stench which infiltrates my every pore 

silence 

eternity 

might as well relax 

it's much too late 

to cancel 

all my reservations in hell