all that i ever wanted

to understand my nightmares

possessed by my fears

betrayed by my Pride

alone i wandered in the deepest Dark

seeking confort from the vanity

each time i escaped the Real

my soul died,died a bit more

praying for my angel to appear

agonized whisper into the emptiness

begging for salvation-salvation for this cursed mind



Word without meaning

Touch without feeling

-I do not recognize my own face...

eyes that were ince shining

-now extinguished

left only a silent cold

sound of a tear falling down

in the desperate hour of loneliness

this shattered heart reaching 

for it's relief-the relief it can not fird

Glance without affection

Kiss without sensivity

Promise without comprehension

Love without hope

-I do not remember my own tale ...

betrayed by my Angel

betrayed by my Beliefs

betrayed by my Delusions

betrayed by my Lust

(I wish)

Streight-to be released from my demons

(I wish)

Windsom-to forgive the Past ....to forgive me



By Perttu Kivïlaakso