I always tell myself to be patient

but my left hand shakes

against your new couch

control of the situation

fell through my fingers

i heard her say :

"You can't keep living as if you're dying"

well, i'm dying


now in an awkward way

to spend the holiday

in such a deviant way to behave

its amazing how quiet this house is 

when the world outside,

it celebrates their new years

and their new fears


your addiction is okay,

'cause its manically approved

and the night has expired 

lay me down to sleep

but one more thing can you say diction

and admit my guilt, emergency

and emergency

its whispered at night


now in an awkward way

to spend the holiday

in such a deviant way to behave

its amazing how quiet this house is 

when the world outside,

it celebrates their new years

and their new fears