i woke up at seven and my body was vibrating

i was wrapped up in a blanket

i was grey

damp and sore

the bedroom was an engine and my heartbeat was erratic

(like i think i'm at the racing

like the night before)

i remember one girl standing

one was sitting on the ground

one was holding me up

the other pulling me down

and i couldn't decide which one was real

because there wasn't a sound

(like i was pregnant again... )



"don't move don't blink don't think don't even breathe" she said

"or the photograph will spoil

and cut you off at the head"

so i was sucking 

i was sucking like a fat lady would

but i couldn't hold it down another second

(bleagh!)

"don't twitch don't shout don't think don't even breathe" she said

"or the photograph will spoil and cut you off at the head"

so i was sweating

i was sweating like a fat lady would...

and i woke up

with a man inside my mouth

(this won't hurt at all... )