I don't think I am what I was before

I never watched anyone die before

I wish I'd never left home

I wish I'd left it alone

Temptation is a disease

You can never do as you please

Your body takes over and your mind don't care

Never think twice what might happen out there

Go straight in for the ultimate sin

And nobody else ever seems to care

So I took what I thought was mine

And waited for a very long time

And I thought I knew what happened to you

Cos you told me exactly what to do

So I did it right and stayed up all night

Felt like killing myself for you

I don't think like I did before

I never watched anyone die before

I felt like I died as well

The look the words the smell

The way you looked at me

As if I'd never be free

I remember the words like a favorite song

Cos I forget the way things went wrong

Faked a picture of perfect health

Then I realised I was killing myself

I don't think I am what I was before

I never watched anyone die before

I dream in slow motion and I wake up screaming