watching you like this

tears me apart

you regress your feelings

the guilt is all mine

I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing

torn in two as you

regress this frustration

this walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak

this urge never overcame me so strong

like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears

in dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry

what happened to the promises?

your lies and hatred

you shut me out

became what you despised magnified

I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up

you're not waking up this time

set yourself up for self-destruction again

you're not waking up