Lonely and restless on the coldest of nights

With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down.

Im only fooling everyone else

So that everyone else turns their back on me.


Cant let go of these feelings that Im keeping inside

Or hold on, cause Im feeling like Im barely alive.

Lay back, as this pain takes over me.

Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control

Nineteen years, and Ive got nothing to show

Were only getting older now.


This pain seems forgotten

But inside Im rotting

Thinking of all this time

Left to waste then die

The only thing I know for sure

Is I dont care anymore


And when Im gone

I hope you have the strength to move on

Angry, but Im told to not complain

Recluse, but Im better off this way

This is not what I want, but Ill just bite my tongue

Im hungry, but Im too tired to eat

Tired, but Im too hungry to sleep

Were only getting older now


And it hurts.

Save me cause Im drowning,

Please give me more time

Cause I cant keep on counting

It feels like Im blinded now

As they shut me out

But Im trying to see

Please make this stop


My pain seems forgotten

But inside Im rotting

Thinking of all this time.

I wait to die

But Im not going to know what Im doing hear

So why cant you give me a sign

And as I drown now

Swimming in an ocean of fear

My last regret is

Never knowing why Im here.