I'm distracted not attracted

You attach without connection

As I self serve my diffracted mind

I don't want what I need

I don't care about the scars I leave

Your name and smile a thrown out file

As soon as we break away

Only when I hate you do I really love myself



I will only let you down

I can only fail you



You won't want me then I'll want you

When you come back I won't want you

Pushed and pulled our minds will rip in two

I'm so scared of what I need I don't care

About the scars received

I live in self denial

I'm afraid of what I've got

I don't know why I hate you when you love me



My life's the lies of you and i

I've grown so hard that I deny accusations even

When they're true

My pain is all I trust I don't care

How much I bleed

Don't regret the time you met me

Don't hold the harm I did against me

I don't know why I want to hurt you

When you touch me



Why do you stick around and let me do this? 

Why do you stick around for this torture? 



Only when I'm with you do I want to be without

Your eyes are the windows

To the emptiness inside me