Arrival at the wrong place,

incidental manipulations,

reasonless undeliberate deeds,

torn connections, unused opportunities.


the ways can't be ungone,

me following the plan.

decisions can't be undone

turn-offs, shattered illusions


the failures i have seen corrupt my structure-of-life-machine

there is nothing right in where i reached this night

left behind by progress of life

desolate

past reflected in my eyes


exhausted from the struggle

against what's closing in on me

against the walls that block my way

against what i have seen


motivation's almost gone, the will to defend what makes me live.

hate remains, a crippling frenzy unleashed by lack of construction


smash reality!

destroy this empty futile realm!


the failures i have seen corrupt my structure-of-life-machine

there is nothing right in where i reached this night

left behind by progress of life

desolate

past reflected in my eyes


grip is lost

time winds away

drifting apart

nauseated by recognition


the failures i have seen corrupt my structure-of-life-machine

there is nothing right in where i reached this night

left behind by progress of life

desolate

past reflected in my eyes


destinations fade