I feel like I need to apologise 

For all the pain I've caused you guys 

I never even tried to make it right 

It seems that all we do is fight 

Maybe one day this will change, a family again 



I was responsible 

For your breakdown and all the hospital calls 

It's so hard seeing someone that you love 

Fall apart before your eyes when you can't help them get back up 



So I'm passing this along 

To tell you I'm sorry 

For everything I've done 

Maybe some day I might be able to tell you this 

Without having to hide it in the lyrics of a song 



I held you in my arms as you cried 

Then you looked at me and said Nick I want to die 

Well these arn't the words a son's supposed to hear 

From his own mother because deep down she thinks I never cared 



You were always there for me I know 

And I believe you when you say it's hard to let go 

Hard to let go of me 

Watching me self destruct with such ease 

Depression is the cause this sick disease is killing me 

Disease is killing me 



So let's let by gones be 

And no matter what happens I know you'll love me 

And that's all I need 

So I'm passing this along 

To tell you I'm sorry for everything I've done 

Maybe some day I might be able to tell you this 

Without having to hide it in the lyrics of a song