I can't be without you though I'm learning that I have to and it hurts my heart. I stare at our picture. there's no warmth in this frame. I missed your call another day and thoeh the years will pass you so quickly I hope you know that I'll be here, if ever you need me, but... it's all my fault for bringing on this pain. I locked my vaults and threw away the keys. so kill it out of me, so quickly I need you to know, I didn't plan for this and while you grow I want to be there for it. please promise me I'll get the chance another day. well I've been without you and each night it keeps me up wide awake, a diggerent place I'm only doung what I know how to do. to best provide for you. though I can't spend my time with you.