And I'm stuck
With palm prints to my face
I never wanted to be
What I always hate

A new set of old regrets
Like the backhand from
My father's plans

And I'm crucified
Fall for me
A cross that hates
And that shadow
Well I forget 'em
It didn't help at all to pay the rent
And I live in a perfect town
I was the pastor with the broken crown

And I'm just trying
To figure out
What I did this
What I did this
Don't hate me!
Don't hate me!
You hate me!
'Cause I fucked up!

And I'm just trying to figure out
Why I'm so in love with doubt
Why am I so afraid

What is this that keeps me up at night?
What is this that keeps me up at night?
The passion, the feel
The dare in the seil
The lies that
The lies that
The lies that I own

Ah!

Why did I do this?
Why-oh-why-oh-why?
If you cannot fix this
How could I?

And I'm just trying to figure out
Why I'm so in live with doubt
Why am I so afraid of myself?

What is this that keeps me up at night?
What is this that keeps me up at night?
The passion, the feel
The blood in the seil
The lies that
The lies that
The lies that I own

I'm still so afraid of what I might turn out to be
(Give me a reason to move on!)
And I'm still so afraid of the life that I lead
(Give me a reason to move on!)
Give me a reason to go on alone!
I'm still afraid!

Ah!

And all I ever wanted was to not feel alone
All I ever wanted was to find my way home
All I ever wanted was to not feel alone
But that's exactly what I got
'Cause that's exactly what I've owed