i don't drink to forget 

i drink so i can suffer twice as much 

cuz in this world of pain 

nothing breaks the memory of your touch 

what was i thinking 

i should have kept drinking 

to flood you face from my mind 

but now it's over and i'm sober enough 

to know you fucked my mind 

love can seem like slow death 

if it's not returned 

you will feel your body and soul 

start to burn with desire 

and unrelenting pain 

the tears they cloud my eyes 

i bite my tongue till i taste my blood 

so you won't hear my cries 

hiding in my private darkness 

i put you out of my mind 

my fear of death being overcome 

by my hatred for this life