Losing control, finding control

I'm like a run away train on a [?] untrained
A mouth full of paraffin spittin' in the flames
More than a few lands spitting on the graves
Psychological trigger bound by the diabolical figure
I acknowledge the rom
It's like my thoughts are mine sometimes
Ego is over loaded
Strugglin' to re -check
What we need is more respect
On the same page we can all progress
But too many act like they're too big for that
You're wrapped in your own flag
And you got to resolve
And then you climb back gradually
And fight that clarity
Then lie back happily

These voices in my mind are whispering
I try my best to fight them
Then I end up feeling violent
Stuck in solitude
The way we end up in
And the way we pressurize it
Climbing back a wall and building webs like spiders
Frozen face smiling
We blow size
Back on the strings of a violin
Flowing out the wall
I want to alleviate this migraine
I guess I have to live this life
Behind the high-way

Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold

Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold

Steady with the slip
I'm trying to stay focused
But my mind takes a trip
Every time I take sip from
From housewife to housewife to hoe
They go go go
The only thing that suits
Is another instrumental
This week we can be civilized
That's all I recommend you
I'm taking control
Or at least trying
And I'm just trying to make a difference
And keep flying
Not just keep lying
It's so much hard to lie to myself
That's why I'm kicking off pirates from this ship
For no one else
Blame is a funny game
Shame is another state
Call my name into the rack where I used to play
Change what I used to say
Like I used to straight
Lose or gain control
Gain or lose a day
I think about all the demons in my mind
And I'm trying to compensate the week that I smoked
But it ain't about the money
I'm saying that she was so pissed off
I'm playing on the day
And my brain keeps decaying
I can't remember where I've been
And my mind is relating
Paranoid delusions with no real solutions
Feel like I'm losing
And it ain't no hope
But we are in the same boat
Trying to juggle addiction
Struggling' with the truth
And it's time to quit them
Don't wanna be the victim like the past
And show me
You wanna change the day
But it's happening slowly

Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold

Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold