How can I comprehend the consequences of my decision

It's so frustrating

How can my life reflect upon my envision

My concentrations failing

People say it's time to stop pretending

The answers will come my way

Time can only heel wounds that need mending

That's just the price that we payWatch swim away

From this place that I don't know anymore

Watch me drift away

From this place that was my shore

How many time have I told myself to stay away

Countless numbers

How many times should I have left when she told me to stay

I can't even remember

If I could easily escape this situation

If I only could

If I could easily control my hesitation

If I only would