November, missed the train and the chance to say what i 
had to say. I guess it's too perfect how every piece 
falls into place. And that night your eyes never met 
mine, you were confused, so was i. And i heard every 
word you said, I just don't believe them. What are you 
afraid to break, is it my heart or yours? What can we 
say, we've said it all and been there and back, I just 
want to go back. It's all so perfect. Was I more afraid 
of the truth or a lie, it's better to say it's all 
wrong than it's all right. Skinner knees and city 
smiles running through the streets, it's all the same 
to you. 'Unrequieted love's a bore, and I've got it 
pretty bad, but for someone you adore, it's a pleasure 
to be sad'(-Billie Holiday, Rogers-Hart). Three little 
words, 'you're killing me'... I'll never know what love 
is. Lotta walks late at night til I could see your 
side. As long as you're there I'll be here. When will I 
see you again? What can I say? What can I do? Empty 
promises fulfilled. Pocketful of nothings received. You 
can cover up your words. They just magically disappear 
and I'm left with no choice; I move on. What did you 
expect from me? As i force fed myself. Lying in these 
fields of grass we planned to sow. Throwing baseballs 
threw the trees and mending holes. I wanted to love you 
more than you'll ever know. I never wanted it to end 
this way. I got in my car knowing you'd never call. It 
was your prophecy. Didn't I mean anything? Didn't you 
know I cared? What has friendship become? This is 
heaven to me. Nothing's ever felt so right before, did 
i tell you? Nothing, before now. (Why can't you see?) 
No, not this again. What will become of us now? I 
always seem to want what I can't have and now I'm back 
to where i began. Why? Not this again. Why do I try? I 
tried. I wish you knew (how I'm really feeling now). 
Why? I'm tired, too tired to try. So please, let's just 
say we don't have to try anymore. They said they would 
wait for me, but what was left for me? I think I'll 
take early retirement from the guessing game. When we 
were young, the games we played.