I walked through the door with you 
The air was cold 
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow 
And I left my scarf there at your sister’s house 
And you’ve still got it in your drawer even now 

Oh, your sweet disposition, and my wide eyed gaze 
We’re singing in the car getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place 
And I can picture it after all these days 
And I know it’s long gone and that magic’s not here no more 
And I might be OK but I’m not fine at all

'Cause there we are again on that 
Little town street 
You almost ran the red 
'Cause you were looking over at me 
Wind in my hair, I was there 
I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter 
Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed 
And your mother’s telling stories 'bout you on the tee ball team 
You taught me bout your past thinking your future was me
And you were tossing me the car keys 
‘Fuck the patriarchy’ keychain on the ground
We were always skipping town

And I was thinking on the drive down
Any time now, he’s gonna say it’s love
You never called it what it was
'Til we were dead and gone and buried 
Check the pulse and come back 
Swearing it’s the same, after 3 months in the grave

And then you wondered where it went to
As I reached for you but all I felt was shame
And you held my lifeless frame 
And I know it’s long gone and 
There was nothing else I could do 
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to

'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We’re dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
I remember it all too well

And there we are again when nobody had to know
You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath
Sacred prayer and we’d swear 
To remember it all too well 

Well, maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'Til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there
I remember it all too well

And you call me up again 
Just to break me like a promise 
So casually cruel in the name of being honest 
I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all 

They say all’s well that ends well
But I’m in a new hell every time
You double-cross my mind
You said if we had been closer in age
Maybe it would have been fine
And that made me want to die

The idea you had of me
Who was she?
A never-needy, ever lovely jewel
Whose shine reflects on you
Not weeping in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me what happened: You.
That’s what happened: You

You, who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you were on a late night show
But then he watched me watch the front door 
All night, willing you to come
And he said, “it’s supposed to be fun: turning 21” 

Time won’t fly
It’s like I’m paralyzed by it 
I’d like to be my old self again
But I’m still trying to find it 
After plaid shirt days 
And nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things 
And I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf
From that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence, and it smells like me 
You can’t get rid of it
'Cause you remember it all too well

'Cause there we are again when I loved you so 
Back before you lost the one real thing you’ve ever known
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there 
You remember it all 
Down the stairs, you were there 
You remember it all
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well

And I was never good at telling jokes 
But the punchline goes:
“I’ll get older, but your lovers stay my age”
From when your Brooklyn broke my skin and bones
I’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?
Just between us, did the love affair maim you too?
'Cause in this city’s barren cold
I still remember the first fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell
I remember it all too well

Just between us did the love affair maim you 
All too well
Just between us, do you remember it 
All too well
Just between us, I remember it 
All too well

Wind in my hair 
I was there, I was there
Down the stairs
I was there, I was there
Sacred prayer
I was there, I was there
It was rare, you remember it
All too well